Are You Manifesting Or Pushing Yourself?
I went through a period in my life where I substituted the word manifesting for doing, earning, working, and “willing” life from my ego.
I had convinced myself that through checking all of the different boxes that I was no longer trying to control or will it when in fact that was exactly what I was doing- only in more clever packaging.
I ended up exhausted, overwhelmed, and burned out. I wanted to run away from everything. I didn’t see how from my manifesting mindset (which was really rooted in unworthiness) I had unknowingly created my own prison.
I see this in many women when I first begin supporting them. They are frustrated because they have done “all the things” and aren’t where they want to be. In this I see that they are being asked to face the areas they feel the most resistance, to go deeper- to the root.
When we move and create in this world from a place of not believing we’re deserving or worthy, we’ll always be led back to situations that invite us to heal this. We are being shown where we are disconnected and fragmented so that we can choose to see ourselves in the truth of who we are.
We are being asked to align ourselves more and more with the perspective of our high self. If we aren’t willing to see where we are avoiding or pulling the wool over our own eyes, then we often end up repeating the same patterns again and again wondering why this is happening.
The offering is to look at what the common denominator is in our patterns. Where do we feel a lot of resistance? Where is fear running us and leading us?
Where are we being asked to trust ourselves to feel and let go of trying to will it all ourselves?
Once I recognized that my ego cleverly switched the word “doing” to “manifesting” I saw that I had just moved the puzzle pieces around but that I was playing the same game.
I began to practice leaning into where in manifesting, I wanted to do, earn, or strive instead of surrender to what I was feeling.
I began to lean into something bigger than what my ego and small self wanted.
I realized it wasn’t about eradicating fear and that no emotion lasts forever. Underneath my definition of manifesting was fear. I was being asked to let go, surrender, and feel what needed to be felt- to stop running.
“They say happiness is a choice, but I think it’s peace that we can choose, peace in acceptance that life is everything. And that’s okay. A baseline of peace incites happiness to stay a little longer and lets the sadness come and go, as it must. As it all Must. -Donna Ashworth
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Love,
Jen